12.15.2008

Twas the Month before Christmas

*Twas the month before Christmas*
*When all through our land,*
*Not a Christian was praying*
*Nor taking a stand.*
*Why the PC Police had taken away,*
*The reason for Christmas - no one could say.*
*The children were told by their schools not to sing,*
*About Shepherds and Wise Men and Angels and things.*
*It might hurt people's feelings, the teachers would say*
* December 25th is just a 'Holiday'.*
*Yet the shoppers were ready with cash, checks and credit*
*Pushing folks down to the floor just to get it!*
*CDs from Madonna, an X BOX, an I-pod*
*Something was changing, something quite odd! *
*Retailers promoted Ramadan and Kwanzaa*
*In hopes to sell books by Franken & Fonda.*
*As Targets were hanging their trees upside down*
* At Lowe's the word Christmas - was no where to be found.*
*At K-Mart and Staples and Penny's and Sears*
*You won't hear the word Christmas; it won't touch your ears.*
*Inclusive, sensitive, Di-ver-si-ty*
*Are words that were used to intimidate me.*
*Now Daschle, Now Darden, Now Sharpton, Wolf Blitzen*
*On Boxer, on Rather, on Kerry, on Clinton!*
*At the top of the Senate, there arose such a clatter*
*To eliminate Jesus, in all public matter.*
*And we spoke not a word, as they took away our faith*
* Forbidden to speak of salvation and grace*
*The true Gift of Christmas was exchanged and discarded*
*The reason for the season, stopped before it started.*
*So as you celebrate 'Winter Break' under your 'Dream Tree'*
*Sipping your Starbucks, listen to me.*
*Choose your words carefully, choose what you say*
*Shout MERRY CHRISTMAS ,
not Happy Holiday!*

Please, all Christians join together and
wish everyone you meet during the holidays a
MERRY CHRISTMAS

Christ is 'The Reason' for the Christ-mas Season!

12.07.2008

Treasure all you possess

A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said: 'I am blind, please help.' There were only a few coins in the hat.

A man was walking by.
He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat.
He then took the sign, turned it around, and wrote some words.
He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words.

Soon the hat began to fill up.
A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy.
That afternoon the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were.
The boy recognized his footsteps and asked, 'Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?'

The man said, 'I only wrote the truth.
I said what you said, but in a different way.'
What he had written was: 'Today is a beautiful day and I cannot see it.'
Do you think the first sign and the second sign were saying the same thing?

Of course both signs told people the boy was blind.
But the first sign simply said the boy was blind.
The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind.
Should we be surprised that the second sign was more effective?

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Be thankful for what you have. Be creative. Be innovative. Think differently and positively.

Invite others towards good with wisdom. Live life with no excuse and love with no regrets.
When life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile.
Face your past without regret.
Handle your present with confidence.
Prepare for the future without fear.
Keep the faith and drop the fear.
Great men say, 'Life has to be an incessant process of repair and reconstruction, of discarding evil and developing goodness....
In the journey of life, if you want to travel without fear, you must have the ticket of a good conscience.'

The most beautiful thing is to see a person smiling...
And even more beautiful is knowing that you are the reason behind it.

12.05.2008

Two Indian Dessert Recipes I want to try



Friday after Thanksgiving, we went to an Indian Buffet Lunch with Fr. Gaspar. The Tandori & Masala are yummy, But the desserts! Here are two found on the internet. I think I will try them out!

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Gaajar Halwa (Carrot Pudding)

Ingredients:
1 kg (just over 2 pounds) of fresh grated carrots
2 tins (400 gms each) sweetened condensed milk
1 cup full-cream milk
1 cup sugar
1 cup ghee
200 gms khoya (thickened milk)
75 gms raisins/sultanas
75 gms almonds blanched and slivered
75 gms pistachios slivered

Preparation:
Mix the carrots, condensed milk, milk and sugar in a large pan and cook on a medium flame till all the milk thickens and reduces.
Add the khoya and ghee to the carrot-milk mix and fry till the carrots turn a to dark orange color.
Add the dried raisins, almonds and pistachios, mix well and turn off fire.
Allow the halwa to cool slightly and serve in bowls with a dollop of vanilla icecream each.

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RICE PUDDING ~ Kheer (Payasam in the south, Payesh in the east)

Ingredients:
2 litres full-cream milk
1 can (400 gms) sweetened condensed milk
1 tsp cardamom powder
1 cup sugar
1 cup Basmati rice
50 gms almonds blanched and slivered
50 gms raisins
A few strands of saffron
Rose petals to garnish (optional)
Preparation:
Wash the rice well and soak for half an hour in enough water to cover it fully.
Put the milk, condensed milk and sugar in a deep, thick-bottomed pan and boil. When the milk comes to a boil, add the rice and simmer. Cook till the milk thickens and reduces to half its original volume.
Add the almonds, raisins and cardamom and cook for 5 more minutes.
Turn off the fire and add the saffron. Stir well.
Allow the kheer to cool, then chill.
Serve cold garnished with rose petals.

11.05.2008

The Sack Lunches

I put my carry-on in the luggage compartment and sat down in my assigned seat. It was going to be a long flight. "I'm glad I have a good book to read. Perhaps I will get a short nap," I thought.

Just before take-off, a line of soldiers came down the aisle and filled all the vacant seats, totally surrounding me. I decided to start a conversation. "Where are you headed?" I asked the soldier seated nearest to me.

"Chicago - to Great Lakes Base. We'll be there for two weeks for special training, and then we're being deployed to Iraq "

After flying for about an hour, an announcement was made that sack lunches were available for five dollars. It would be several hours before we reached Chicago, and I quickly decided a lunch would help pass the time.

As I reached for my wallet, I overheard soldier ask his buddy if he planned to buy lunch. "No, that seems like a lot of money for just a sack lunch. Probably wouldn't be worth five bucks. I'll wait till we get to Chicago " His friend agreed.

I looked around at the other soldiers. None were buying lunch. I walked to the back of the plane and handed the flight attendant a fifty dollar bill. "Take a lunch to all those soldiers." She grabbed my arms and squeezed tightly. Her eyes wet with tears, she thanked me. "My son was a soldier in Iraq; it's almost like you are doing it for him."

Picking up ten sacks, she headed up the aisle to where the soldiers were seated. She stopped at my seat and asked, "Which do you like best - beef or chicken?"

"Chicken," I replied, wondering why she asked. She turned and went to the front of plane, returning a minute later with a dinner plate from first class. "This is your thanks."

After we finished eating, I went again to the back of the plane, heading for the rest room. A man stopped me. "I saw what you did. I want to be part of it. Here, take this." He handed me twenty-five dollars.

Soon after I returned to my seat, I saw the Flight Captain coming down the aisle, looking at the aisle numbers as he walked, I hoped he was not looking for me, but noticed he was looking at the numbers only on my side of the plane. When he got to my row he stopped, smiled, held out his hand, an said, "I want to shake your hand."
Quickly unfastening my seatbelt I stood and took the Captain's hand. With a booming voice he said, "I was a soldier and I was a military pilot. Once, someone bought me a lunch. It was an act of kindness I never forgot." I was embarrassed when applause was heard from all of the passengers.

Later I walked to the front of the plane so I could stretch my legs. A man who was seated about six rows in front of me reached out his hand, wanting to shake mine. He left another twenty-five dollars in my palm.

When we landed in Chicago I gathered my belongings and started to deplane. Waiting just inside the airplane door was a man who stopped me, put something in my shirt pocket, turned, and walked away without saying a word. Another twenty-five dollars!
Upon entering the terminal, I saw the soldiers gathering for their trip to the base. I walked over to them and handed them seventy-five dollars. "It will take you some time to reach the base. It will be about time for a sandwich. God Bless You."

Ten young men left that flight feeling the love and respect of their fellow travelers. As I walked briskly to my car, I whispered a prayer for their safe return. These soldiers were giving their all for our country. I could only give them a couple of meals.
It seemed so little...

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A veteran is someone who, at one point in his or her life wrote a blank check made payable to: "The United States of America " for an amount of "up to and including his or her own life.
"THAT IS HONOR, and as sad as it may seem, there are way too many people in this country who no longer understand it!"

Sometimes just acknowledgement is enough to make a service person feel like what they are doing is totally worth it...and helps to pull them through the tough times!

If you know a vet or someone still currently serving and you truly appreciate the freedom we enjoy in our country...let them know how you feel and thank them for their selfless sacrifice. It has more impact than you can ever imagine!

11.04.2008

Where is your key? 鑰匙在那裡

No matter where we are, either environment, people, events, or things sometimes make our emotions fluctuate, But don't forget! Don't get upset too long by one sentence uttered by another person.

Where is your key?

A famous writer, Sydney Harries, and his friend went to buy newspapers from a newspaper stand, His friend politely said thanks to the seller, But the seller only responded with a cold face, not saying a word. 'This fellow has a very bad attitude, hasn't he?' Harries asked as they continued to walk forward.

'He is like this every evening', the friend replied. So why are you still so polite to him? Harries asked. 'Why should I allow him to determine my own behaviour?' replied his friend. 'A mature person will always hold on to his own Key of Happiness, he does not depend on others to make him happy, instead he is able to give happiness and blessings to others. Every man has a 'Key of Happiness' in his own heart, but has often unconsciously given that key to be under others' control.

A lady complained: 'I live very unhappily, because my husband often has to be out of town for his job', she has put her key of happiness to her husband's hands.

A Mom said: 'My disobedient child makes me very mad', she has put her key to her child's hands.

A man may say: 'My boss does not appreciate me, thus I feel so depressed', he has put his key of happiness to the hands of his boss.

The mother-in-law said: 'My daughter-in-law does not practice filial piety to me, I really have a bad life!'

The young man came out from a stationery shop, saying: 'That shop owner has a very bad attitude, I feel so mad'.

All these people have made th same decision, and that is to allow other people to control their own emotions.

When we allow others to control our emotions, we will feel we are the victim, and are helpless to face our own situations, complaints and anger would be our only choice. We begin to blame others, and convey the following message:

'All the pain that I am suffering is created by you, you should be responsible for all my pains.' At that time, we give a very heavy responsibility to those around us, and demand them to make us happy.

It seems we admit that we have no way to take control of ourselves, and thus pitifully can only allow others to control us. This person would make others run away from him, or to be afraid of him. But a mature person would hold on to his own Key of Happiness, he does not expect others to make him happy, on the contrary, he is able to give happiness and blessings to others, His emotions are stable, he is responsible for his own life, it is an enjoyment, a freedom from pressures, to be together with him. Where is your key? In others' hands? Make haste to get it back!

The opposite of love is not hate, but is indifference and no caring. Love changes everything. No matter whether life is sweet or bitter.


這篇文章希望你能體會到它的涵意。
其實我們身處的地方,不論是環境,人,事,物都很容易影響我們的情緒起伏,可是千萬別忘了!不要因為他人的一句話,而在意太久哦!

鑰匙在那裡

從箸名專欄作家哈理斯(Sydney Harries)和朋友在報攤上買報紙,那朋友禮貌地對報販說了聲謝謝,但報攤卻冷口冷臉,沒發一言。'這傢伙態度很差,是不是?'他們繼續前行時,哈理斯問道。

'他每天晚上都是這樣的。'朋友說。

'那麼你為什麼還是對他那麼客氣?'哈理斯問他。朋友答道:'為什麼我要讓他決定我的行為?'一個成熟的人握住自己的快樂鑰匙,他不期待別人使他快樂,反而能將快樂與幸福帶給別人。每人心中都有把'快樂的鑰匙',
但我們卻常在不知不覺中把它交給別人掌管。 

一位女士抱怨道:'我活得很不快樂,因為先生常出差不在家。' 他把快樂的鑰匙放在先生手裡。

一位媽媽說:'我的孩子不聽話,叫我很生氣!' 她把鑰匙交在孩子手裡。

男人可能說:'上司不賞識我,所以我情緒低落。' 這把快樂鑰匙又被塞在老闆手裡。

婆婆說;'我的媳婦不孝順,我真命苦!'

年輕人從文具店走出來說:'那位老闆服務態度惡劣,把我氣炸了!'

這些人都做了相同的決定,就是讓別人來控制他的心情。當我們容許別人掌握我們的情緒時,我們便覺得自己是受害者,對現況無能為力,抱怨與忿怒成為我們唯一的選擇。我們開始怪罪他人,並且傳達一個訊息:

'我這樣痛苦,都是你造成的,你要為我的痛苦負責!'此時我們就把一重大的責任托給週圍的人,即要求他們使我們快樂。我們似乎承認自己無法掌握自己,只能可憐的任人擺佈。這樣的人使別人不喜歡親近,甚至望而生畏。但一個成熟的人握住自己快樂的鑰匙,他不期待別人使他快樂,反而能將快樂與幸福帶給別人。他的情緒穩定,為自己負責,和他在一起是種享受,而不是壓力。

你的鑰匙在那裡?在別人手裡嗎?快去把它拿回來吧!愛的反面不是仇恨,而是漠視而不關心。不管人生是甚麼味道甜的吃、苦也吃

Wise words for an election year

During this election year let's be reminded of these words:

* You cannot help the poor, by destroying the rich.

* You cannot strengthen the weak, by weakening the strong.

* You cannot bring about prosperity, by discouraging thrift.

* You cannot lift the wage earner up, by pulling the wage payer down.

* You cannot further the brotherhood of man, by inciting class hatred.

* You cannot build character and courage, by taking away men's initiative and independence.

* You cannot help men permanently, by doing for them what they could and should, do for themselves .

Do you recognize the author?
It was Abraham Lincoln

Very, very wise words, written years ago and we still don't get it... Why do MOST People think the Government owes them a living?

10.30.2008

Story: The Other Side


A father wanted to read a magazine but was being bothered by his little girl, Shelby. She wanted to know what the United States looked like.

Finally, he tore a sheet out of his new magazine on which was printed the map of the country. Tearing it into small pieces, he gave it to Shelby and said, 'Go into the other room and see if you can put this together. This will show you our whole country today.'

After a few minutes, Shelby returned and handed him the map, correctly fitted and taped together.

The father was surprised and asked how she had finished so quickly. 'Oh,' she said, 'on the other side of the paper is a picture of Jesus. When I got all of Jesus back where He belonged, then our country just came together.'

10.27.2008

The Girl With An Apple



(The picture above is taken by Jennifer Shaw at Auschwitz. She's studying aboard in Austria & visited there)

The Girl With An Apple ~~ a most remarkable, true love story

August 1942. Piotrkow , Poland.

The sky was gloomy that morning as we waited anxiously. All the men, women and children of Piotrkow's Jewish ghetto had been herded into a square.

Word had gotten around that we were being moved. My father had only recently died from typhus, which had run rampant through the crowded ghetto. My greatest fear was that our family would be separated.

'Whatever you do,' Isidore, my eldest brother, whispered to me, 'don't tell them your age. Say you're sixteen.

'I was tall for a boy of 11, so I could pull it off. That way I might be deemed valuable as a worker.

An SS man approached me, boots clicking against the cobblestones. He looked me up and down, and then asked my age.

'Sixteen,' I said. He directed me to the left, where my three brothers and other healthy young men already stood.

My mother was motioned to the right with the other women, children, sick and elderly people.

I whispered to Isidore, 'Why?' He didn't answer.

I ran to Mama's side and said I wanted to stay with her.

'No, 'she said sternly.

'Get away. Don't be a nuisance. Go with your brothers.'

She had never spoken so harshly before. But I understood: She was protecting me. She loved me so much that, just this once, she pretended not to.

It was the last I ever saw of her.

My brothers and I were transported in a cattle car to Germany.

We arrived at the Buchenwald concentration camp one night weeks later and were led into a crowded barrack. The next day, we were issued uniforms and identification numbers.

'Don't call me Herman anymore.' I said to my brothers. 'Call me 94983.'

I was put to work in the camp's crematorium, loading the dead into a hand-cranked elevator.

I, too, felt dead. Hardened, I had become a number.

Soon, my brothers and I were sent to Schlieben, one of Buchenwald's sub-camps near Berlin.

One morning I thought I heard my mother's voice. 'Son,' she said softly but clearly, I am going to send you an angel.' Then I woke up. Just a dream. A beautiful dream.

But in this place there could be no angels. There was only work. And hunger. And fear. A couple of days later, I was walking around the camp, around the barracks, near the barbed-wire fence where the guards could not easily see. I was alone.

On the other side of the fence, I spotted someone: a little girl with light, almost luminous curls. She was half-hidden behind a birch tree.

I glanced around to make sure no one saw me. I called to her softly in German. 'Do you have something to eat?' She didn't understand.

I inched closer to the fence and repeated the question in Polish. She stepped forward. I was thin and gaunt, with rags wrapped around my feet, but the girl looked unafraid. In her eyes, I saw life.

She pulled an apple from her woolen jacket and threw it over the fence. I grabbed the fruit and, as I started to run away, I heard her say faintly, 'I'll see you tomorrow.'

I returned to the same spot by the fence at the same time every day. She was always there with something for me to eat - a hunk of bread or, better yet, an apple.

We didn't dare speak or linger. To be caught would mean death for us both.

I didn't know anything about her, just a kind farm girl, except that she understood Polish. What was her name? Why was she risking her life for me?

Hope was in such short supply, and this girl on the other side of the fence gave me some, as nourishing in its way as the bread and apples.

Nearly seven months later, my brothers and I were crammed into a coal car and shipped to Theresienstadt camp in Czechoslovakia.

'Don't return,' I told the girl that day. 'We're leaving.'

I turned toward the barracks and didn't look back, didn't even say good-bye to the little girl whose name I'd never learned, the girl with the apples.

We were in Theresienstadt for three months. The war was winding down and Allied forces were closing in, yet my fate seemed sealed.

On May 10, 1945, I was scheduled to die in the gas chamber at 10:00 AM.

In the quiet of dawn, I tried to prepare myself. So many times death seemed ready to claim me, but somehow I'd survived. Now, it was over.

I thought of my parents. At least, I thought, we will be reunited.

But at 8 A.M. there was a commotion. I heard shouts, and saw people running every which way through camp. I caught up with my brothers.

Russian troops had liberated the camp! The gates swung open. Everyone was running, so I did too. Amazingly, all of my brothers had survived; I'm not sure how. But I knew that the girl with the apples had been the key to my survival.

In a place where evil seemed triumphant, one person's goodness had saved my life, had given me hope in a place where there was none.

My mother had promised to send me an angel, and the angel had come.

Eventually I made my way to England where I was sponsored by a Jewish charity, put up in a hostel with other boys who had survived the Holocaust and trained in electronics. Then I came to America , where my brother Sam had already moved. I served in the U. S. Army during the Korean War, and returned to New York City after two years.

By August 1957 I'd opened my own electronics repair shop. I was starting to settle in.

One day, my friend Sid who I knew from England called me. 'I've got a date. She's got a Polish friend. Let's double date.' A blind date? Nah, that wasn't for me. But Sid kept pestering me, and a few days later we headed up to the Bronx to pick up his date and her friend Roma.

I had to admit, for a blind date this wasn't so bad. Roma was a nurse at a Bronx hospital. She was kind and smart. Beautiful, too, with swirling brown curls and green, almond-shaped eyes that sparkled with life. The four of us drove out to Coney Island . Roma was easy to talk to, easy to be with. Turned out she was wary of blind dates too!

We were both just doing our friends a favor. We took a stroll on the boardwalk, enjoying the salty Atlantic breeze, and then had dinner by the shore. I couldn't remember having a better time.

We piled back into Sid's car, Roma and I sharing the backseat.

As European Jews who had survived the war, we were aware that much had been left unsaid between us. She broached the subject, 'Where were you,' she asked softly, 'during the war?'

'The camps,' I said. The terrible memories still vivid, the irreparable loss. I had tried to forget. But you can never forget.

She nodded. 'My family was hiding on a farm in Germany , not far from Berlin ,' she told me. 'My father knew a priest, and he got us Aryan papers.'

I imagined how she must have suffered too, fear, a constant companion. And yet here we were both survivors, in a new world.

'There was a camp next to the farm.' Roma continued. 'I saw a boy there and I would throw him apples every day.'

What an amazing coincidence that she had helped some other boy. 'What did he look like? I asked.

'He was tall, skinny, and hungry. I must have seen him every day for six months.'

My heart was racing. I couldn't believe it. This couldn't be.

'Did he tell you one day not to come back because he was leaving Schlieben?'

Roma looked at me in amazement. 'Yes!'

'That was me!'

I was ready to burst with joy and awe, flooded with emotions. I couldn't believe it!
My angel.

'I'm not letting you go.' I said to Roma. And in the back of the car on that blind date, I proposed to her. I didn't want to wait.

'You're crazy!' she said. But she invited me to meet her parents for Shabbat dinner the following week.

There was so much I looked forward to learning about Roma, but the most important things I always knew: her steadfastness, her goodness. For many months, in the worst of circumstances, she had come to the fence and given me hope. Now that I'd found her again, I could never let her go.

That day, she said yes. And I kept my word. After nearly 50 years of marriage, two children and three grandchildren, I have never let her go.

Herman Rosenblat of Miami Beach , Florida

This story is being made into a movie called The Fence.
http://www.atlanticoverseaspictures.com/herman.htm

Oprah Winfrey presented the couple on her show, calling their story "the single greatest love story, in 22 years of doing this show, we've ever told on the air."
http://www.oprah.com/slideshow/relationships/couples/slideshow1_ss_rel_20071114/1

10.19.2008

More Changes...

Deacon Jim annouced this morning that he will be transfering to the Church of Nativity. I didn't catch when he will be leaving. Any way... I googled & found that Nativity is in Rancho Santa Fe.

Also, we have a new priest, Fr. Frank. He's a retire Navy Chaplain & will be celebrating one of the Masses each week.

& yours truly will be a little bit busy coming two weeks as Steve & Terry out of the Country. Two rehearsals & next Sunday Mass. Don't mind doing it, cos' I am having too much fun singing :D

10.17.2008

The Law of the Garbage Truck

One day I hopped in a taxi and we took off for the airport. We were driving in the right lane when suddenly a black car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us. My taxi driver slammed on his breaks, skidded, and missed the other car by just inches!

The driver of the other car whipped his head around and started yelling at us. My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy. And I mean, he was really friendly. So I asked, 'Why did you just do that? This guy almost ruined your car and sent us to the hospital!' This is when my taxi driver taught me what I now call, 'The Law of the Garbage Truck.'

He explained that many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment. As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it and sometimes they'll dump it on you. Don't take it personally. Just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on. Don't take their garbage and spread it to other people at work, at home, or on the streets.

The bottom line is that successful people do not let garbage trucks take over their day.

Life's too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so....

'Love the people who treat you right. Pray for the ones who don't.' Life is ten percent what you make it and ninety percent how you take it!

10.13.2008

iPod, finally! :P



So... I finally I bought an iPod. It's an X-Files limited edition (numbered) 120G Classic. It comes with engravement. I got my internet handle veritassima, plus the phrase "Quem Quaeritis?"

The word Veritassima comes from veritas (truth). St. Hildegard von Bingen created new words sometimes. For example, Viridissima the greenest green. So, Veritassima can translate into The Truest Truth. It is actually a catch phrase used in the episode Trust No 1.

Then last night, I stumbling upon the phrase Quem Quaeritis?, Whom do you seek? It is a paraphrase of the Easter morning, the angel asked the women who came to the tomb of Jesus, why are you seeking the living among the death?
In X-Files, Mulder & Scully are seekers of the Truth. & the underline theme of the show, epecially for the second movie, was Hope, Light, Love, & Faith. & that kind of the idea of Easter, isn't it? :)

10.11.2008

Carrot Goji berries Cake

Doctored up a Betty Crocker Carrot Cake, with shredded carrot (don't know how much, 2 carrots), 2 handful of Goji Berries. Pinches of grounded ginger & cardamon. Probably will make ginger cream cheese fosting

A Story: God & $$

An unemployed graduate woke up one morning and checked his pocket. All he had left was $10. He decided to use it to buy food and then wait for death as he was too proud to go begging. He was frustrated as he could find no job, and nobody was ready to help him.

He bought food and as he sat down to eat, an old man and two little children came along and asked him to help them with food as they had not eaten for almost a week. He looked at them. They were so lean that he could see their bones coming out. Their eyes had gone into the socket. With the last bit of compassion he had, he gave them the food. The old man and children prayed that God would bless and prosper him and then gave him a very old coin. The young graduate said to them 'you need the prayer more than I do'.

With no money, no job, no food, the young graduate went under the bridge to rest and wait for death. As he was about to sleep, he saw an old newspaper on the ground. He picked it up, and suddenly he saw an advertisement for people with old coins to come to a certain address.

He decided to go there with the old coin the old man gave him. On getting to the place, he gave the proprietor the coin. The proprietor screamed, brought out a big book and showed the young graduate a photograph. This same old coin was worth 3 million dollars. The young graduate was overjoyed as the proprietor gave him a bank draft for 3 million dollars within an hour. He collected the Bank Draft and went in search of the old man and little children.

By the time he got to where he left them eating, they had gone. He asked the owner of the canteen if he knew them. He said no but they left a note for you. He quickly opened the note thinking it would lead him to find them. This is what the note said: 'You gave us your all and we have rewarded you back with the coin,' signed God the Father, The Son and The Holy Ghost. 1 Kings 17:10-16; Matthew 11:28-30

10.09.2008

Сердитый пианист ("angry pianist" according to yahoo)


For those of you who had Chinese or Russian music teachers while growing up – have you seen your teacher angry or upset? Oh… probably because you haven’t practice or made a mess around the piano. Wasn’t pretty, is it?
Well, Viktor, our Organist at church was very upset yesterday when he saw the piano.
Church doors were wide open when he got there, and no one was there. Everything was unattended.
The piano, the Bösendorfer Half Concert Grand, was open. There are DIRTY handprints all over the lip – imagine post-candy kid prints. There’s even a new scratch.
Apparently, the kid group was using the church earlier in the day (3-4pm, sometimes also till 5pm); which is 2-3 hours before choir rehearsal.
So Viktor is considering having the Piano locked during non Mass time & non-choir rehearsal time. “They can use the keyboard instead!” Agree, $200 keyboard is easier to replace than the $60000 Bösendorfer (that’s how much donation gotten to buy the instrument).

Change of Season


Sure, the weather in San Diego has been pretty wild -- it has been in the 80s coastline last week, & today? It's 92 & climbing 10am. October, you said?

However, I am not talking about the weather right now. There are changes at church, specifically, with the music ministry. Apparantly, the music director is no longer working at church. 'Apparantly', because I only heard it from third person, her daughter sang for the youth group, & there was an email from the priest to all the ministry. ok. I don't think he has my email address. LOL.

Back around Easter, someone had told me the administration has been asking people for eval of the director. & he said he has prepared if he got asked, and I should be prepared, too. (thank God, I didn' get ask!)

As some might know, I've been involved with the Choir in the past year. In most of the past months, whenever Steve, the Choir Director (note, not same person as music director) is away, I would lead the choir for Mass. During this summer, I also led rehearsals for a couple of times. In addition, Terry (Steve's wife, a professional singer, is in charge of cantor training & vocal coaching) was away the whole summer for concerts.... so where was I? Oh, yes, think of it as Steve's TA. :) Rehearal Technique 101. And I can tell you, church choir has VERY different dynamic.

Well... the liturgical year is coming to an end, which means we will begin to prepare for Advent & Christmas soon. We'll see what happen...

p.s. Steve & Terry will be away for 2 weeks later in Oct. But right now, I am enjoying activity that require lest brain power - a.k.a singing. A nice little break for now. :)
Speaking of break, saw on Steve's posted "secret schedule" that he's away today. I thought... it MUST be a typo! I didn't get the memo! He WAS indeed away today, in DC. But Terry led the rehearsal. :) At any rate, I should begin to look at the Messiah Choruses we are doing before the Midnight Mass ~ "And the Glory," "O Thou," For Unto Us," "Glory to God," & of course, "Hallelujia Chorus".

9.25.2008

Cookie - Joyful Hearts

I made these cookies for the Oktoberfest. Recipe is from the book called " From Saint Hildegard's Kitchen"

Cookies that bring joy

12 TBSP plus 1 tsp butter
3/4 cup brown sugar
1/3 cup hony
4 egg yolks
2 1/2 cup Spelt Flour
1 tsp sait
2 round TBSP of "Spices that bring Joy" (ratio ~ 1TBSP nutmeg, 1 TBSP cinnamon, 1 tsp clove)

Melt butter under low heat, add sugar, honey, ^ egg yolks; beating lightly.
Add flour & salt, combine gently.
Refrigerate dough after mixing until firm.
Roll out onto a floured surface, cut with a cookie cutter.
Bake in 400F oven for 10-15 minutes until jut golden, watch closely.

I needed to lower the oven Temp to 375 & the cookies is baked in ~ 10min. Next time mayb I will lower the temp even more, so the cookies can stay longer in the oven & get crispy.

It said in the book that these spices help reduce bad humors, enrich the blood, and fortify the nerves. They help strengthen the five senses. They may remove hate from the heart, assure good intelligence, reduce harmful juices, and make one have a joyful spirit.

Anyway, so I bougrht a heart-shaped cookie cutter, named these cookies Joyful Hearts. Coinccidently, the Gospel Acclamation we are using is from the Mass setting "Joyful Heart". How appropriate for the Choir Bake-Sale!

9.08.2008

Salute!

This really happened. Nice, Clean Catholic Joke

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So it was Thanksgiving Day, the whole family gather around the table, plenty of food, and the wine is flowing.

My aunt handed me a glass of red wine, which I really doesn't care much (sorry Bud, nothing personal), but I accepted it anyway.

As I sipped the wine, I said jokingly to my cousins, "I don't really like red wine much, I only drink it on Sundays, and only a sip."

My cousin Lawrence, who's in first year Dental School, immediately caught on. He continued: "and you only drink it at a particular time on Sunday, say… like around 9:30 am or 7:30pm. It's ALWAYS a big party in this big Club House, lots of benches to sit on. There is lots of good conversations & plenty of live music & sing-along, and there's bread to pass around to go along with the wine. There's even a guy in a robe who likes to talk a lot!!

It's a nice hymn list, if I must say so myself...

Found a copy of the hymn hand-out in my Gather, this is for 21st Sunday in Ordinary Time, for the Chinese Mass. All the hymns are sung in Chinese.
I remembered thinking -- the Organists & the Traditionalists would have like it~~

Processional: Alleluia, Sing to Jesus (Gather 853)
Offertory: The Church's One Foundation (Gather 661)
Communion: Jesus My Lord, My God, My All (Gather 480)
Recessional: Holy Holy Holy, Lord God Almighty (Gather 474)

I don't remember which Chant I did for Communion, it is either Pagne Lingua or Adoro Te Devote.

9.04.2008

God's Timing

A man from Norfolk , VA called a local radio station to share this on September 11th, 2003. is Name was Robert Matthews. These are his words.

"A few weeks before September 11th, my wife and I found out we were going to have our first hild. She planned a trip out to California to visit her sister. On our way to the airport, we prayed that God would grant my wife a safe trip and be with her.
Shortly after I said amen, we both heard a loud pop and the car shook violently. We had blown out a tire. I replaced the tire as quickly as I could, but we still missed her flight. Both very upset, we drove home.

I received a call from my father who was retired NYFD. He asked what my wife's flight number was, but I explained that we missed the flight.

My father informed me that her flight was the one that crashed into the southern tower. I was too shocked to speak. My father also had more news for me. He was going to help. He said, "This is not something I can't just sit by for. I have to do something."

I was concerned for his safety, of course, but more because he had never given his life to Christ. After a brief debate, I knew his mind was made up. Before he got off of the phone, he said, "Take good care of my grandchild."

Those were the last words I ever heard my father say. He died while helping in the rescue effort.

My joy that my prayer of safety for my wife had been answered quickly became anger. I was angry at God, at my father, and at myself. I had gone for nearly two years blaming God for taking my father away. My son would never know his grandfather, my father had never accepted Christ, and I never got to say goodbye.

Then something happened. About two months ago, I was sitting at home with my wife and my son, when there was a knock on the door. I looked at my wife, but I could tell she wasn't expecting anyone. I opened the door to a couple with a small child. The man looked at me and asked if my father's name was Jake Matthews. I told him it was.

He quickly grabbed my hand and said, "I never got the chance to meet your father, but it is an honor to meet his son."

He explained to me that his wife had worked in the World Trade Center and had been caught inside after the attack. She was pregnant and had been caught under debris. He then explained that my father had been the one to find his wife and free her.
My eyes welled up with tears as I thought of my father giving his life for people like this. He then said, "There is something else you need to know."

His wife then told me that as my father worked to free her, she talked to him and led him to Christ.

I began sobbing at the news. Now I know that when I get to Heaven, my father will be standing beside Jesus to welcome me, and that this family would be able to thank him themselves.

When their baby boy was born, they named him Jacob Matthew in honor of the man who gave his life so that mother and baby could live.

This story should help us to realize two things. First that God is always in control. We may not see the reason behind things, and we may never know this side of Heaven, but God is always in control.

And second is that though it has been several years since the attacks, we should never let it become a mere tragic memory.

Please take time to share this amazing story with those you love. You may never know the impact it may have on someone.

God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

9.03.2008

The Heart

「明天早上我就會打開你的心臟。」外科醫生開始說…
「你會找到耶穌在那裡。」小男孩打斷醫生說。
醫生抬起頭,不耐煩地說:「我會把你的心臟打開,看一看損害到了什麼程度…」
「可是,你把我的心臟打開的時候,你會在那裡找到耶穌。」小男孩說。
小男孩的父母靜靜的坐在房間的角落,外科醫生看了他們一眼,對小男孩說:「了解損害到了什麼程度後,我會把你的心縫起來,然後再計劃該怎樣做。」
「可是,你會在那裡找到耶穌。聖經上是這樣說的,聖詠裡也都說祂是住在那裡的。我告訴你,你會在我的心裡找到耶穌。」小男孩說。
外科醫生聽夠了:「我告訴你我會在你的心裡找到什麼。我會找到損害了的肌肉,低血供應,還有薄弱的血管。我必須知道怎麼樣才可以把你治好。」
「你也會在那裡找到耶穌。他住在那裡呀。」
外科醫生離開小男孩的病房。
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外科醫生坐在他辦工室內,記錄手術的筆記:「損壞了的主動脈,損壞了的肺靜脈,普及性的肌肉退化。移植機會極微,治瘉機會極微。療程:鎮痛劑,床上休息。判病結果…還剩下不到一年的時間…」
雖然還有很多筆記要做,外科醫生的手卻停了下來。「主啊,為什麼袮要這樣做?袮把這個小男孩生在這世界上,讓他受那麼多的痛苦,又要他年紀這樣小就離開這個世界。主啊,為什麼袮要這樣做?」
天主這樣回答說:「這個小男孩是我的羊,他並不會長久屬於你的。他永遠屬於我的羊棧。在我的羊棧當中,他不再會有痛苦,他所受的安慰是你不能想像的。他的父母終有一天會與這個小男孩在一起,他們將會得到平安;而我的羊棧將不停地成長。」
醫生聽了,哭了起來;但他仍然生天主的氣:「袮創造了那個小男孩,袮創造了那個心。他只剩下最後幾個月的生命。為什麼?」
天主回答說:「這個小男孩是我的羊,他會回到我的羊棧,因為他已完成他的工作。我把他放到你的羊棧中,不是為了把他丟掉,而是為了領回其他迷失的羊。」
聽了這話,外科醫生抱頭痛哭。
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醫生坐在小男孩的床邊,他的父母坐在房間的另一角落。小男孩醒了,對醫生小聲的說:「你把我的心打開了嗎?」
「開了。」
「你找到什麼了?」
「開了。」
「我在那裡找到耶穌了。」

Author Unknown - Celebrate Jesus in 2005

The Joy in Loving

Found this in the "article folder", so just sharing

不論任何種族或宗教背景,
我們的目的是
把天主以及祂的愛
送到貧窮中之最貧窮的人。
我們辨別施捨的準繩
是在於需要程度而不是信仰。
我們在工作中
為天主愛的臨在做見證,
如果一個天主教徒、新教徒、
佛教徒或是不可知主義者,
因此成為更完善的人,
我們就滿足了。
在天主的愛裡成長,
他們會更接近祂,
也會在祂的至善中找到祂。

致我的同工們:
我希望你們能更集中精力
在你們自己的區域裡,
全心地為窮人提供免費服務。
你們每一位都要留意去找到
那些孤獨的、遭遺棄的,以及殘障的。
可能只是一個微笑,一次上門探望,
為某人讀一份報紙。
統統是小事,是的,非常小的事。
可是那就是你把對天主的愛
付諸行動。
這種精神必須從你的心坎上
散溢到你的家庭裡、
你的鄰里之間、
你居住的城鎮、你的國家,乃至全世界。

The Joy in Loving, Blessed Teresa of Calcutta

8.18.2008

An Email from God,

To: YOU
Date: TODAY
From: GOD
Subject: YOURSELF
Reference: LIFE
This is God. Today I will be handling All of your problems for you. I do Not need your help.

So, have a nice day. I love you.

P.S.
And, remember...
If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do Not attempt to resolve it yourself! Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box. I will get to it in MY TIME. All situations will be resolved, but in My time, not yours. Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold onto it by worrying about it. Instead, focus on all the wonderful things that are present in your life now.
Should you decide to send this to a friend; Thank you. You may have touched their life in ways you will never know! Now, you have a nice day.
God

8.12.2008

Quilt of Holes

As I faced my Maker at the last judgment, I knelt before the Lord along with all the other souls.

Before each of us laid our lives like the squares of a quilt in many piles; an angel sat before each of us sewing our quilt squares together into a tapestry that is our life.

But as my angel took each piece of cloth off the pile, I noticed how ragged and empty each of my squares was. They were filled with giant holes. Each square was labeled with a part of my life that had been difficult, the challenges and temptations I was faced with in every day life. I saw hardships that I endured, which were the largest holes of all.

I glanced around me. Nobody else had such squares. Other than a tiny hole here and there, the other tapestries were filled with rich color and the bright hues of worldly fortune. I gazed upon my own life and was disheartened.

My angel was sewi ng the ragged pieces of cloth together, threadbare and empty, like binding air.

Finally the time came when each life was to be displayed, held up to the light, the scrutiny of truth. The others rose; each in turn, holding up their tapestries. So filled their lives had been. My angel looked upon me, and nodded for me to rise.

My gaze dropped to the ground in shame. I hadn't had all the earthly fortunes. I had love in my life, and laughter. But there had also been trials of illness, and wealth, and false accusations that took from me my world, as I knew it. I had to start over many times. I often struggled with the temptation to quit, only to somehow muster the strength to pick up and begin again. I spent many nights on my knees in prayer, asking for help and guidance in my life. I had often been held up to ridicule, which I endured painfully, each time offering it up to the Father in hopes that I would not melt within my skin beneath the judgmental gaze of those who unfairly judged me.

And now, I had to face the truth. My life was what it was, and I had to accept it for what it was.

I rose and slowly lifted the combined squares of my life to the light. An awe-filled gasp filled the air. I gazed around at the others who stared at me with wide eyes.

Then, I looked upon the tapestry before me. Light flooded the many holes, creating an image, the face of Christ. Then our Lord stood before me, with warmth and love in His eyes. He said, 'Every time you gave over your life to Me, it became My life, My hardships, and My struggles.

Each point of light in your life is when you stepped aside and let Me shine through, until there was more of Me than there was of you.'

May all our quilts be threadbare and worn, allowing Christ to shine through!

God determines who walks into your life....it's up to you to decide who you let walk a way, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.'

Father, God bless my friends and family in whatever it is that you know they may need this day! And may their life be full of your peace, prosperity and power as he/she seeks to have a closer relationship with you. Amen.

7.24.2008

德國的一張罰單

錢是你自己的,但資源是全社會的

德國是個工業化程度很高的國家,說到賓士,BMW,西門子……沒有人不知道,世界上用於核子反應爐中最好的核心泵就是在德國的一個小鎮上產生的。

在這樣一個發達國家,人們的生活一定是紙醉金迷燈紅酒綠吧。去德國考察前,我們在描繪著、揣摩著這個國度。到達港口城市漢堡之時,我們習慣先去餐館,已在駐地的同事免不了要為我們接風洗塵。

走進餐館,我們一行穿過桌多人少的中餐館大廳,心裡犯疑惑:這樣冷清清的場面,飯店能開下去嗎?更可笑的是一對用餐情侶的桌子上,只擺有一個碟子,裡面只放著兩種菜,兩罐啤酒,如此簡單,是否影響他們的甜蜜聚會?如果是男士買單,是否太小氣,他不怕女友跑掉?

另外一桌是幾位白人老太太在悠閒地用餐,每道菜上桌後,服務生很快的幫她們分配好,然後就被她們吃光光了。

我們不再過多的注意她們,而是盼著自己的大餐快點上來。駐地的同事看到大家飢餓的樣子,就多點了些菜,大家也不推讓,大有「宰」駐地同事的意思。

餐館客人不多,上菜很快,我們的桌子很快被碟碗堆滿,看來,今天我們是這裡的大富豪了。狼吞虎嚥之後,想到後面還有活動,就不再戀酒菜,這一餐很快就結束了。結果還有三分之一沒有吃掉,剩在桌面上。

結完賬,個個剔著牙,歪歪扭扭地出了餐館大門。出門沒走幾步,餐館裡有人在叫我們。不知是怎麼回事:是否誰的東西忘記了?我們都好奇,回頭去看看。原來是那幾個白人老太太,在和飯店老闆嘰哩呱啦說著什麼,好像是針對我們的。看到我們都圍來了,老太太改說英文,我們就都能聽懂了,她在說我們剩的菜太多,太浪費了。我們覺得好笑,這老太太多管閒事!「我們花錢吃飯買單,剩多少,關妳老太太什麼事?」同事阿桂當時站出來,想和老太太練練口語。聽到阿桂這樣一說,老太太更生氣了,為首的老太太立馬掏出手機,撥打著什麼電話。

一會兒,一個穿制服的人開車來了,稱是社會保障機構的工作人員。問完情況後,這位工作人員居然拿出罰單,開出 50馬克的罰款。這下我們都不吭氣了,阿桂的臉不知道扭到哪裡去了,也不敢再練口語了。

駐地的同事只好拿出50馬克,並一再說:「對不起!」這位工作人員收下馬克,鄭重地對我們說:「需要吃多少,就點多少!錢是你自己的,但資源是全社會的,世界上有很多人還缺少資源,你們不能夠也沒有理由浪費!」我們臉都紅了。但我們在心裡卻都認同這句話。這個富有的國家裡,人們還有這種意識。我們得好好反思:我們是個資源不是很豐富的國家,而且人口眾多,平時請客吃飯,剩下的總是很多,主人怕客人吃不好丟面子,擔心被客人看成小氣鬼,就點很多的菜,反正都有剩,你不會怪我不大方吧。

事實上,我們真的需要改變我們的一些習慣了,並且還要樹立「大社會」的意識,再也不能「窮大方」。那天,駐地的同事把罰單複印後,給每人一張做紀念,我們都願意接受並決心保存著。阿桂說,回去後,他會再複印一些送給別人,自己的一張就貼在家裡的牆壁上,以便時常提醒自己。


錢是你自己的,但資源是全社會的,
很值得我們深深反省,
我們是否常有『花錢是爺的事』錯誤觀念?
從我們知識份子做起!飯局需要吃多少,就點多少!

7.19.2008

夫妻

她比他小20歲,嫁給他的時候,家鄉的人都以為她傍上大款。只有她知道,他到底是一個什麼樣的男人。

他只是一個普通的男人,又黑又醜,一口黃牙。媒人當初可沒這麼說,只說是個過日子的男人,就因為家裏窮給耽擱了,一直沒找上媳婦。那陣子,沒找上媳婦的都去山區找,有四川的、山西的、湖南的……花幾千元就可以找來。那男人也托人帶一個回來,這就是她,一個死了丈夫的女人。

媒人說男人富著呢,靠手藝吃飯。女人因為急於逃離那個家庭,問都沒問男人會什麼手藝就嫁過來了。過來後才知道,他的手藝就是在外面風吹雨淋地修鞋,再加上男人長得醜陋,讓她有種上當的感覺。回去,已無退路,婆家人叫她喪門星,說是她剋死了丈夫。

再婚後,男人很寵她,隔三岔五給她買些小玩意來,一盒粉餅,一支口紅,幾串荔枝……她長到30歲,從來沒有用過口紅,更不用說吃荔枝了,很快,她就覺得自己比楊貴妃還要幸福,吃荔枝的時候,男人不吃,只是傻傻地看著她吃。她說:'你也吃。'他說:'我不愛吃它,看著你吃我就高興。'後來,她偶然上街,隨口問了一下荔枝的價格,嚇一跳,竟然要20元1斤。她的眼睛一亮,他怎麼可能不愛吃荔枝?他是捨不得吃呀。

她更加疼他,早晨早早起來給他做飯,晚上做好熱乎乎的飯菜等他回來;冬天的時候,男人在街上修鞋,一天下來,凍得全身冰冷,女人就把男人的腳放到自己懷裏暖著。男人也很知足,說是上輩子修來的福才會娶到她,他為什麼50歲還沒有結婚,就為等她唄。說得女人心花怒放。

女人見男人每天那麼累很心疼,她說:'給我買台機器吧,我和你一塊修鞋去。'男人不答應,說他掙的錢足夠養活她,可女人認真了,偏要去。於是街上總能看到一對老夫少妻在修鞋,兩個人緊挨著,有鞋修的時候,兩個人就一起動手,空閒時,就有說有笑地聊著。冬天刮大風,女人的手都凍紅了,耳朵也凍得青一塊紫一塊,這時,男人買來一塊烤紅薯,紅薯散發著誘人的香味。男人剝開,用嘴吹著,卻不吃,
他把紅薯放到女人嘴邊,女人幸福地咬一口,又吹一吹,讓男人吃。他們一人一口地吃著,好像享受一頓美食,好像吃著愛情的聖塔。

有一天,男人對女人說:'總有一天,我會走在你前面。'女人就哭了,說:'那我和你一起去。'

男人說:'不行!'然後男人又說:'我們現在的錢還不夠很多,再掙幾年,給你養老應該沒問題。還有,我給你在地裏種了500棵樹,等有一天我去了,你也不能動了,那500棵樹也長大了,我相信它們能夠養活你。'

女人撲到男人懷裏哭了。500棵樹,那只是500棵樹嗎?這一輩子從沒有人替她這樣想過,可這個男人甚至為她想到老年,她覺得這輩子真是值了。現在城裏人興什麼夫妻樹、愛情樹,而她的男人給她種的樹要比那些樹珍貴一萬倍,那是一片夫妻同心樹。

7.06.2008

You might be hardcore Catholic if...

This is the [partial] description of a FaceBook group I joined~~

-you've accidentally genuflected at a place other than church ex. the movie theatre, school auditorium

-you have a "favorite" religious order
Benedictine. & I grew up going to school founded by the Canossan Sisters of Charity.

-you know that advent is the beginning of the new church year.
Why, of Course. Duh.

-You know at least five people named Mary
Yup. And probably a dozen or two Teresa / Theresa

-you're able to sit still for a full hour in front of the Blessed Sacrament

-you are discerning the religious life

-you often end disputes with, "Let's look it up in the Catechism."

-when watching star wars and hear "may the force be with you" you respond with "and also with you"
In Latin? Sung?

-you and friend friends ever played "Mass" instead of House, or Cops and Bad Guys.

-on the night before the first Sunday of Advent you and your friends have a Liturgical New Year's Eve party, and count down to the new Liturgical Year!!
Hmmm... good idea.

-You associate the smell of incense with major feast days.

-you point at your friends in line for confession calling them sinners and everyone laughs as you get to the end of line.

-The word "vocation" to you does not simply mean "job"(Thanks to Chris Whooley)
I never thought of the word as "job". vocation always means, VOCATION.

-You have a Rosary or Saint Christopher pin in your car

-You would rather get your picture with the pope then with a huge celebrity.

-You have contemplated being in a religous order at least once.

-Your one wish is to be able to ride in the Popemobile (Thanks to Kathleen Tarrant)

-You had competitions with your friends on Ash Wednesday to see who could keep their ashes on the longest.
I did. & I remember which year. It was 1996. Had Chamber Chorus rehearsal. Out of about 20 of us, 1/3 were secretely having the competition. :D

-You find yourself asking all the cute boys whether or not they've ever considered becoming a priest instead of asking them for their number

-You spend your Thursday nights at choir practice hanging out with people at least thirty-five years older than you in preparation for Sunday Mass (Thanks to Corrina Lansangan)
well... I was in the children's choir, then I was at Berkeley. & now, not 35yr older, some maybe 20yrs...

-You mentally correct every textbook use of "BCE" and CE" with "Before Christ" and "Anno Domini". You also mentally capitalize every written use of the word "God' and "Mass"

-youve ever thought it would be fun to read the CCC as if it were a novel (Thanks to Daniel Buttig)

-You plan what to wear based on the liturgical color of the day (Thanks to Brandon Kraft)
I have blouses in Purple, Red, Rose, & Blue bought for this reason. LOL

-You think getting a S.T.D. is cool... (Thanks to Brandon Kraft) (S.T.D.= Doctorate of Sacred Theology)

-When you hear the word Madonna, you think of the Blessed Virgin, not the song "Like a Virgin." (Thanks to CA McCauley)

-You know that "prostrate" is not a place where men develop cancer

-You look at this list and laugh really hard, b/c you know it's so true

7.03.2008

qoutes about faith

1. Give God what's right -- not what's left.
2. Man's way leads to a hopeless end! -- God's way leads to an endless hope.
3. A lot of kneeling will keep you in good standing.
4. He who kneels before God can stand before anyone.
5. In the sentence of life, the devil may be a comma--but never let him be the period.
6. Don't put a question mark where God puts a period.
7. Are you wrinkled with burden? Come to the church for a face-lift.
8. When praying, don't give God instructions - just report for duty.
9. Don't wait for six strong men to take you to church.
10. We don't change God's message -- His message changes us.
11. The church is prayer-conditioned.
12. When God ordains, He sustains.
13. WARNING: Exposure to the Son may prevent burning.
14. Plan ahead -- It wasn't raining when Noah built the ark.
15. Most people want to serve God, but only in an advisory position.
16. Suffering from truth decay? Brush up on your Bible.
17. Exercise daily -- walk with the Lord.
18. Never give the devil a ride -- he will always want to drive.
19. Nothing else ruins the truth like stretching it.
20. Compassion is difficult to give away because it keeps coming back.
21. He who angers you controls you.
22. Worry is the darkroom in which negatives can develop.
23. Give Satan an inch & he'll be a ruler.
24. Be ye fishers of men -- you catch them & He'll clean them..
25. God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

Can You Sleep When the Wind Blows?

Can You Sleep When the Wind Blows?

Years ago a farmer owned land along the Atlantic seacoast. He constantly advertised for hired hands. Most people were reluctant to work on farms along the Atlantic. They dreaded the awful storms that raged across the Atlantic, wreaking havoc on the buildings and crops. As the farmer interviewed applicants for the job, he received a steady stream of refusals.

Finally, a short, thin man, well past middle age, approached the farmer. "Are you a good farm hand?" the farmer asked him.

"Well, I can sleep when the wind blows," answered the little man. Although puzzled by this answer, the farmer, desperate for help, hired him.

The little man worked well around the farm, busy from dawn to dusk, and the farmer felt satisfied with the man's work.

Then one night the wind howled loudly in from offshore. Jumping out of bed, the farmer grabbed a lantern and rushed next door to the hired hand's sleeping quarters. He shook the little man and yelled, "Get up! A storm is coming! Tie things down before they blow away!"

The little man rolled over in bed and said firmly, "No sir. I told you, I can sleep when the wind blows."

Enraged by the response, the farmer was tempted to fire him on the spot. Instead, he hurried outside to prepare for the storm. To his amazement, he discovered that all of the haystacks had been covered with tarpaulins. The cows were in the barn, the chickens were in the coops, and the doors were barred. The shutters were tightly secured. Everything was tied
down. Nothing could blow away.

The farmer then understood what his hired hand meant, so he returned to his bed to also sleep while the wind blew.

MORAL: When you're prepared, spiritually, mentally, and physically, you have nothing to fear. Can you sleep when the wind blows through your life? The hired hand in the story was able to sleep because he had secured the farm against the storm.

We, as believers in Christ, secure ourselves against the storms of life by grounding ourselves in the Word of God. We don't need to understand, we just need to hold His hand to have peace in the midst of the storms.

Luke 8:22-25 One day Jesus said to His disciples, ‘Let’s go over to the other side of the lake? So they got into a boat and set out. As they sailed, He fell asleep. A squall came down on the lake, so that the boat was being swamped, and they were in great danger. The disciples went and woke Him, saying, ‘Master, Master, we’re going to drown! He got up and rebuked the wind and the raging waters; the storm subsided, and all was calm. ‘Where is your faith?' He asked His disciples. In fear and amazement they asked one another, ‘Who is this? He commands even the winds and the water, and they obey Him.?

7.02.2008

"Then comes the quiet of Christ to me"

Father John Powell, a professor at Loyola University in Chicago, writes about a student in his Theology of Faith class named Tommy:

Some twelve years ago, I stood watching my university students file into the classroom for our first session in the Theology of Faith.

That was the day I first saw Tommy. My eyes and my mind both blinked. He was combing his long flaxen hair, which hung six inches below his shoulders. It was the first time I had ever seen a boy with hair that long. I guess it was just coming into fashion then. I know in my mind that it isn't what's on your head but what's in it that counts; but on that day I was unprepared and my emotions flipped. I immediately filed Tommy under "S" for strange... Very strange.

Tommy turned out to be the "atheist in residence" in my Theology of Faith course. He constantly objected to, smirked at, or whined about the possibility of an unconditionally loving Father/God. We lived with each other in relative peace for one semester, although I admit he was for me at times a serious pain in the back pew.

When he came up at the end of the course to turn in his final exam, he asked in a cynical tone, "Do you think I'll ever find God?"

I decided instantly on a little shock therapy. "No!" I said very emphatically.

"Why not," he responded, "I thought that was the product you were pushing."

I let him get five steps from the classroom door and then called out, "Tommy! I don't think you'll ever find Him, but I am absolutely certain that He will find you!" He shrugged a little and left my class and my life.

Later I heard that Tommy had graduated, and I was duly grateful.

Then a sad report came. Tommy had terminal cancer. Before I could search him out, he came to see me. When he walked into my office, his body was very badly wasted and the long hair had all fallen out as a result of chemotherapy. But his eyes were bright and his voice was firm, for the first time, I believe. "Tommy, I've thought about you so often; I hear you are sick," I blurted out.

"Oh, yes, very sick. I have cancer in both lungs. It's a matter of weeks."

"Can you talk about it, Tom?" I asked.

"Sure, what would you like to know?" he replied.

"What's it like to be only twenty-four and dying?

"Well, it could be worse."

"Like what?"

"Well, like being fifty and having no values or ideals, like being fifty and thinking that booze, seducing women, and making money are the real biggies in life..

I began to look through my mental file cabinet under "S" where I had filed Tommy as strange. (It seems as though everybody I try to reject by classification, God sends back into my life to educate me.)

"But what I really came to see you about," Tom said, "is something you said to me on the last day of class." (He remembered!) He continued, "I asked you if you thought I would ever find God and you said, 'No!' which surprised me Then you said, 'But He will find you.' I thought about that a lot, even though my search for God was hardly intense at that time.

"But when the doctors removed a lump from my groin and told me that it was malignant, that's when I got serious about locating God.. And when the malignancy spread into my vital organs, I really began banging bloody fists against the bronze doors of heaven. But God did not come out.

In fact, nothing happened. Did you ever try anything for a long time with great effort and with no success? You get psychologically glutted, fed up with trying. And then you quit.

"Well, one day I woke up, and instead of throwing a few more futile appeals over that high brick wall to a God who may be or may not be there, I just quit. I decided that I didn't really care about God, about an after life, or anything like that. I decided to spend what time I had left doing something more profitable. I thought about you and your class and I remembered something else you had said: 'The essential sadness is to go through life without loving. But it would be almost equally sad to go through life and leave this world without ever telling those you loved that you had loved them.'"

"So, I began with the hardest one, my Dad. He was reading the newspaper when I approached him. "Dad."

"Yes, what?" he asked without lowering the newspaper.
"Dad, I would like to talk with you."
"Well, talk.
"I mean . It's really important."
The newspaper came down three slow inches. "What is it?"
"Dad, I love you, I just wanted you to know that." Tom smiled at me and said it with obvious satisfaction, as though he felt a warm and secret joy flowing inside of him. "The newspaper fluttered to the floor.

Then my father did two things I could never remember him ever doing before. He cried and he hugged me. We talked all night, even though he had to go to work the next morning. It felt so good to be close to my father, to see his tears, to feel his hug, to hear him say that he loved me."

"It was easier with my mother and little brother. They cried with me, too, and we hugged each other, and started saying real nice things to each other. We shared the things we had been keeping secret for so many years.

"I was only sorry about one thing --- that I had waited so long. Here I was, just beginning to open up to all the people I had actually been close to.

"Then, one day I turned around and God was there. He didn't come to me when I pleaded with Him. I guess I was like an animal trainer holding out a hoop, 'C'mon, jump through. C'mon, I'll give you three days, three weeks.'"

"Apparently God does things in His own way and at His own hour.

But the important thing is that He was there. He found me! You were right. He found me even after I stopped looking for Him."

"Tommy," I practically gasped, "I think you are saying something very important and much more universal than you realize. To me, at least, you are saying that the surest way to find God is not to make Him a private possession, a problem solver, or an instant consolation in time of need, but rather by opening to love. You know, the Apostle John said that. He said: 'God is love, and anyone who lives in love is living with God and God is living in him.' Tom, could I ask you a favor? You know, when I had you in class you were a real pain. But (laughingly) you can make it all up to me now. Would you come into my present Theology of Faith course and tell them what you have just told me? If I told them the same thing it wouldn't be half as effective as if you were to tell it."

"Oooh.. I was ready for you, but I don't know if I'm ready for your class."

"Tom, think about it. If and when you are ready, give me a call."

In a few days Tom called, said he was ready for the class, that he wanted to do that for God and for me. So we scheduled a date.

However, he never made it. He had another appointment, far more important than the one with me and my class. Of course, his life was not really ended by his death, only changed. He made the great step from faith into vision. He found a life far more beautiful than the eye of man has ever seen or the ear of man has ever heard or the mind of man has ever imagined.

Before he died, we talked one last time.

"I'm not going to make it to your class," he said.

"I know, Tom."

"Will you tell them for me? Will you ... tell the whole world for me?"

I will, Tom. I'll tell them. I'll do my best."

So, to all of you who have been kind enough to read this simple story about God's love, thank you for listening. And to you, Tommy, somewhere in the sunlit, verdant hills of heaven --- I told them, Tommy, as best I could.

If this story means anything to you, please pass it on to a friend or two. It is a true story and is not enhanced for publicity purposes.

With thanks, Rev. John Powell, Professor, Loyola University, Chicago

6.25.2008

Cell phone vs. Bible

Remember, beginning of July 1, you must use a hand-free headset. & If you are under 18, NO cell phone use at all!!

Another note, I think this apply to internet as well? :p

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I wonder what would happen if we treated our Bible like we treat our cell phone? What if we carried it around in our purses or pockets?

What if we flipped through it several times a day?
What if we turned back to go get it if we forgot it?

What if we used it to receive messages from the text?
What if we treated it like we couldn't live without it?

What if we gave it to kids as gifts?
What if we used it when we traveled?

What if we used it in case of an emergency?

This is something to make you go... hmmm... where is my Bible? Oh, and one more thing. Unlike our cell phone, we don't have to worry about our Bible being disconnected because Jesus already paid the bill.

Makes you stop and think "where are our priorities?" And no dropped calls!

6.17.2008

Bless Me, Father, for I have sinned




Found this on Christus Vincit Blog. That was me looking smut at the gas station: I drive a almost 10 years old (this Thanksgiving) Toyota compact that still gets about 30 miles per gallon. I drive less than 150 miles per week.

So.. facebook

That's lots of things to do on those page. I've seen some of my friends' pages filled with all these gifts & toys, etc etc etc. Some are interesting (I like creating the rooms), some not so useful. The feature I like the most is "the wall", which allows me to just write bits & pieces, versus composing a full email. I am also finding long lost friends, & some surprises -- like Fr. Paddy, who comes from Irland to our church during summer; my college professor (should I add her to my list?)

6.13.2008

I'm fed up with bad church music

I am now on Facebook (Long story, that will be another post). & this is a group I joined. The description is hilarious. I found myself nodding on many points (bold)

This group may be for you...

1. If you are of the opinion that Shine Jesus Shine, Here I Am, Lord, etc. are not the most beautiful church songs ever written.
2. If you think the "Mass of Creation" has had its day.

3. You actually kind of like the idea of singing chant and hymns. Gasp!

4. If you'd rather hear a pipe organ in church than a band or keyboard.

5. If you're dismayed that more than half of the music in many hymnals consists of uninspiring popular music.

6. If praise and worship music just doesn't do it for you.

7. If you think that "Polka Masses" and "Hip Hop Masses" are tacky.

8. If you get a kick out of a congregation trying to count all the sixteenth notes in "Be Not Afraid." I have someone in the CHOIR who does that!!

9. If you're a fan of the the St. Gregory Hymnal, the Hymnal 1940, the Hymnal 1982, "Psalms, Hymns, and Spiritual Canticles," the Australian Hymnal, the Adoremus Hymnal, or the Liber Cantualis.

10. If you love singing the psalms to Gregorian psalm tones or Anglican chant.

11. If you know what a neume is and can name several types. & most of my friends do as well. :)

12. If you're fed up with cantors drowning out the congregation. Being a cantor myself, I am fed up with people keep complaining I am not loud enough!!

13. If you want to play the chord of death when people cut early during the last hymn. What is "the Chord of Death"?

14. If you want to play the chord of death when the congregation won't sing the last hymn.

15. If you want to play the chord of death because the congregation won't sing ANYTHING.

16. If you know that the official "hymnal" of the Roman Catholic church is the Graduale Romanum, and not Gather. Gather is OK

Join our crusade to stamp out bad church music! No, we don't hate new music. Just bad new music. Let's keep our church music triumphant, sacred, awe-inspiring, worthy, and God-centered.

6.10.2008

Lord of All Creations

Yahweh our Lord, how majestic is your name throughout the world!
you have crowned him with glory and beauty, made him lord of the works of your hands, put all things under his feet, sheep and cattle, all of them, and even the wild beasts, birds in the sky, fish in the sea, when he makes his way across the ocean. Yahweh our Lord, how majestic your name throughout the world.


This woman found this lion hurt and about to die. She took him home and took care of him. When the lion was better she called the local zoo to come take care of him. This was the reaction she got when she visited the zoo and the lion saw her. It is beautiful.

6.09.2008

Nun in garden


For whatever reason, I really like this picture.

Name Changing!

Well, I decided to change the name of the bloggs (double "g", or single?). plural because I also have one @ livejournal. Anyway... I thought, because this really isn't the offical blog or website for the SDCCC, & I am the only one around. The blog name & it's content should reflect the "non-official" status. In addition, this will give me more freedom to post whatever! Ha!

5.29.2008

CHURCH HYMNS HUMOR

A minister decided to do something a little different one Sunday morning.

He said "Today, in church, I am going to say a single word and you are going to help me Times; "

Whatever single word I say, I want you to sing whatever hymn that comes to your mind."

The pastor shouted out "CROSS."

Immediately the congregation started singing in unison,
"THE OLD RUGGED CROSS."

The pastor hollered out "GRACE."
The congregation began to sing "AMAZING GRACE, how sweet the sound."

The pastor said "POWER."
The congregation s ang "THERE IS POWER IN THE BLOOD."

The Pastor said "SEX"
The congregation fell into total silence.

Everyone was in shock.
They all nervously began to look around at each other afraid to say anything.

Then all of a sudden, way from in the back of the church,
a little old 87 year old grandmother stood up and began to sing "PRECIOUS MEMORIES."


Gotta Love Little Old Ladies.

Laugh... it burns calories.

5.26.2008

Bread for the world

I was just browsing the news tonight, and read these two article:
First one speaks of the World Food Program being cut for the children of Cambodia. That they will not receive breakfast at school anymore.
news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080526/ap_on_re_as/food_crisis_hungry_children;_ylt=AkiStpBkppNZtmKG31Fi66FvaA8F

In the second article, from Catholic Online, Pope Benedict speaks of the call Catholics are called to end hunger: "Those who eat the Bread of Christ cannot remain indifferent before those who, even in our days, lack daily bread." www.catholic.org/international/international_story.php?id=28060

Jesus among those who suffer



至愛的主耶穌,你曾為你的好友拉匝祿的死亡而哭泣,
讓所有在場的人,都感動地說,你是多麼愛他呀!
我們知道你也深愛四川汶川等地區,因地震而遭受死亡和苦難的兄弟姐妹。
我們現在也像瑪利亞和瑪爾大一樣,感到苦痛和無助;我們只能將他們完全地交付給你。
主耶穌,你是我們的復活和生命,你曾為朋友心神感傷,
求你眷顧這些蒙難的兄弟姐妹,使他們雖然處身於死亡之中,
仍能得到你仁慈的幫助,在苦難中,能懷有希望;
並在你母親瑪利亞的陪伴下,早日走出苦難的陰影,終能分享你復活的喜樂!
你是天主,永生永王!阿門。
(內地一位司鐸撰寫)

Dear Lord Jesus, you had cried for your friend Lazarus' death. How you have loved him! We know that You also love those who had died and injured in the Sichun earthquake. Like Mary and Martha, with sorrow and helplessness, we put them into your care. Lord jesus Christ, you are our resurrection and life. You had grieved for your friend, have mercy on those who suffer, so that they may find hope and comfort in your love. With the Blessed Mother, may they overcome the shadow of the death, and finally share with you the joy of resurrection. You are our God, forever and ever. Amen. (written by a priest in China, from HK Diocese website, translated into english - me)

Catholic Relief Services (CRS) , part of the Caritas Internationalis 〔國際明愛組織〕, is supporting the emergency response of our partner Caritas Hong Kong〔香港明愛〕in the wake of the powerful May 12 earthquake in China that has claimed more than 40,000 lives.
In and around the capital city of Sichuan, Caritas Hong Kong has assessment teams on the ground identifying the scale of devastation and loss, and the ways to best provide immediate and long-term support for survivors. The assessment team will look at reconstruction and rehabilitation needs and will, among other sites, visit collapsed and damaged schools in the area.
Given the trauma and grief that so many Chinese families are facing, Caritas Hong Kong is also coordinating a team of personnel to provide counseling.

http://crs.org/china/sichuan-earthquake/
Catholic Relief Services 228 W. Lexington St. Baltimore, Maryland 21201-3413 | 888-277-7575

向佘山聖母誦

教宗本篤十六世親撰
普世教會為中國教會祈禱日 (五月二十四日)

至聖童貞瑪利亞,
降生聖言之母,又是我們的母親,
您在佘山聖殿被尊稱為「進教之佑」,
整個在中國的教會滿懷熱愛瞻仰您,
今天我們投奔您台前,求您護佑。
請垂顧這天主子民,並以母親的關懷
帶領他們,走上真理與仁愛的道路,
使他們在任何境況下,
都能成為促進全體人民和諧共處的酵素。

您在納匝肋順從主旨,說了「是」,
讓永生天主子在您貞潔的母胎中取得肉軀,
使救贖工程從此在歷史中展開,
您又懇摯地奉獻自己協助這工程,
讓痛苦的利刃刺透您的心靈,
直到最後的重要時刻,在加爾瓦略山上,十字架下,
當您聖子犧牲自己,使世人獲得生命時,
您佇立在祂身旁。

從那時開始,為一切在信仰中追隨您聖子耶穌
並跟著祂背起十字架的人,
您以一種嶄新的形式,成了他們的母親。
希望之母,您在聖週六的黑暗中,
仍懷著堅定不移的信心,迎接復活節的黎明,
請將這分辨的能力賞給您的子女,
使他們在任何處境中,即使是最黑暗的時刻,
仍能見到天主親臨的標記。

佘山聖母,請援助那些在日常勞苦中,
仍繼續相信、希望、和實踐愛德的中國教友,
使他們永不懼怕向世界宣講耶穌,
並在耶穌跟前為世界祈禱。
您以塑像的形態,矗立於佘山聖殿頂,高舉張開雙臂的聖子,
向世界展示祂對世人的深愛。
請幫助天主教友常作這大愛的可信見證人,
並使他們與教會的磐石伯多祿結合在一起。
中國之母,亞洲之母,現在直到永遠,請常為我們祈求。
亞孟。

5.25.2008

TO OUR LADY OF SHESHAN



PRAYER OF HIS HOLINESS BENEDICT XVI
ON THE OCCASION OF THE WORLD DAY OF PRAYER
FOR THE CHURCH IN CHINA (24 MAY 2008)

Virgin Most Holy, Mother of the Incarnate Word and our Mother,
Venerated in the Shrine of Sheshan under the title "Help of Christians",
the entire Church in China looks to you with devout affection.
We come before you today to implore your protection.
Look upon the People of God and, with a mother’s care, guide them
along the paths of truth and love, so that they may always be
a leaven of harmonious coexistence among all citizens.

When you obediently said "yes" in the house of Nazareth,
you allowed God’s eternal Son to take flesh in your virginal womb
and thus to begin in history the work of our redemption.
You willingly and generously cooperated in that work,
allowing the sword of pain to pierce your soul,
until the supreme hour of the Cross, when you kept watch on Calvary,
standing beside your Son, who died that we might live.

From that moment, you became, in a new way,
the Mother of all those who receive your Son Jesus in faith
and choose to follow in his footsteps by taking up his Cross.
Mother of hope, in the darkness of Holy Saturday you journeyed
with unfailing trust towards the dawn of Easter.
Grant that your children may discern at all times,
even those that are darkest, the signs of God’s loving presence.

Our Lady of Sheshan, sustain all those in China,
who, amid their daily trials, continue to believe, to hope, to love.
May they never be afraid to speak of Jesus to the world,
and of the world to Jesus.
In the statue overlooking the Shrine you lift your Son on high,
offering him to the world with open arms in a gesture of love.
Help Catholics always to be credible witnesses to this love,
ever clinging to the rock of Peter on which the Church is built.
Mother of China and all Asia, pray for us, now and for ever. Amen!

5.20.2008

Music List for Corpus Christi

Processional: O Lord, See Us About Your Altar
Responsorial: Ps147
Offertory: Gift of Finest Wheat
Communion: Lord, I am Not Worthy
Recessional: Holy God, We Praise Thy Name

5.15.2008

IF there were chinese Mass this week...

This would be the hymn list:

Introit: Holy God, We Praise Thy Name verses 1 & 3
Responsorial:
Offertory: Ubi Caritas (chant)
Communion: The King of Love My Shepherd Is (ST. COLUMBA)
Recessional: Holy, Holy, Holy, Lord God Almighty

Vespers

Vespers is the evening prayer service in the Roman Catholic, Eastern (Byzantine) Catholic, and Eastern Orthodox, liturgies of the canonical hours. The word comes from the Greek εσπερινός and the Latin vesper, meaning "evening." The term is also in limited use in some Protestant (especially Lutheran and Seventh-day Adventist) denominations to describe evening services, and in some Anglican circles is used unofficially to refer to Evening Prayer.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vespers

Rachmaninov's Vespers is written in Church Slavonic.

4.17.2008

If he looks like a piano teacher & moves like a piano teacher ...



... he probably IS a piano teacher.

I found this picture on the SToC Music ministry homepage. Doesn't it look like Viktor is giving Michael a piano lesson? :D

Speaking of music, I found these on YouTube, these are the two pieces (excerpt) StoC Choir is working on. I think I have mentioned them before. Enjoy.

Henryk Gorecki "Totus Tuus", which means "totally yours":
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W3qOBQ1ZkQM

John Rutter "Gloria":
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AvFVFg06pfg

4.02.2008

Good Story to Share: 丟了翅膀,他仍是天使

Shu-Ching sent this story to share~~

當在外地出差的我坐飛機趕回來時,十個月的兒子新新已經被推出搶救室。醫生說持續的高燒也許損傷了腦神經,我要有心理準備接受可能的後遺症。
老公兩天后才從國外回來。出院後,我們常常測試新新的聽力和視覺,沒有發現任何異常。我們終於放下忐忑的心。可漸漸地,我發現他開始瞪著無神的眼睛發呆,或者呈現一種令我不安的笑容。當和新新一般大的孩子開始邁著步子,清脆地喊著爸爸媽媽的時候,新新依舊呆呆坐在那裏,傻傻地笑著。抱著他四處求醫,結論同出一轍:新新的智力將會停留在幼兒期,除非發生奇跡。
那是段痛不欲生的日子,抱著孩子尋找各種可能的奇跡,秘方、偏方,甚至針灸。那長長的針如同刺在我的心尖,汗和淚伴著孩子淒厲的哭聲一起落下。我多麼希望這只是一場夢,夢醒後充滿靈氣的新新在對我甜甜地笑。我開始幻聽,總感覺新新在喊媽媽。
我深深自責為了事業沒有照顧好兒子,卻不敢留在家裏面對。每天下班後沉默地摟著他,日復一日,淚流盡了,心也似乎麻木了。老公也因為家裏氣氛沉悶,漸漸變得很少回家吃飯。
婆婆來看我們,說把新新帶走,讓我們再要一個孩子。我不假思索斷然拒絕,我不能那樣做!他沒有選擇地來到這個世界,又因為我的疏忽變成這樣,已經夠不幸了!把新新緊緊摟在懷裏,我不要別人分享對他的!
新新兩周歲生日那天,我才驚覺老公已經不再陪我們一起吃飯了,怕失去他的恐慌開始噬咬著我,使我覺得難以呼吸。直至深夜,一身酒氣踉踉蹌蹌的老公才踏進家門,我已經荒蕪的淚水終於又奔湧出來。老婆,我們再要一個孩子好嗎?我狠狠點著頭,與他緊緊相擁,抵死纏綿……
我又懷孕了!撫著逐漸隆起的小腹,有些苦澀的甜蜜。我仿佛比誰都期待這個孩子,卻又在內心裏抗拒這個孩子。看到新新向我伸來的手臂,我的心又湧起巨大的痛楚:新新,這個世界,除了媽媽誰還能愛你!
我終於下定決心打掉這個孩子,可檢查結果使我震驚:我竟然懷了雙胞胎!
2002年的夏天,一對漂亮的小女孩陽陽和月月降臨了。滿月以後,那對粉雕玉琢的小人,總是甜甜地笑,很少哭鬧。只要我一說話,頭就隨著我的聲音轉,讓我充分享受到做媽媽的喜悅。我已經顧不上新新,無論我多麼約束自己,潛意識裏我已經開始忽略新新,只把他交給保姆,甚至開始討厭他那傻傻的樣子。
轉眼,陽陽和月月會走了。新新一般不注意什麼,只是對這兩個妹妹格外敏感,常常注視她們的一舉一動,似乎帶著極大的興趣,而且不同于平時的眼神。我是不允許他接近她們的,他只能那樣在一邊望著,可我控制不住陽陽和月月蹣跚邁向新新的腳步,她們同樣對新新表現出極大的興趣。而我卻捨不得強迫她們什麼,只是一次又一次嚴厲地對新新說,記住,不許碰妹妹!不許碰妹妹!漸漸地,他對我有了怯意,我卻絲毫沒覺得有何不妥。
一天,孩子們在午睡,保姆出去買菜,我去儲物間整理衣物。突然聽到孩子的哭聲,我連忙跑進臥室,看到新新正從床的欄杆間縫向外拉月月的兩根手指,手指被卡住,新新還在用力向外拉。我一把拉過新新,照著他的手,狠狠拍打,不是告訴你不許碰妹妹,不許碰妹妹嗎!看你以後還碰不碰妹妹!我越打越生氣,似乎在發洩對他積累的厭惡。我瘋了似的尋找可以用來打他的東西,直到看見鏡子裏自己魔鬼一樣的臉。我終於聽到孩子們的哭聲,終於看到蜷縮一團哭泣的新新,還有女兒們的喊叫聲……
保姆回來了,抱起新新,看著我餘怒未消的臉想說什麼,我擺擺手讓她抱新新回自己的房間。我哄著陽陽和月月,突然看到床上有幾塊動物餅乾,陽陽的手裏還握著一塊要喂我。我連忙到月月那邊,果然月月那邊床下有幾塊餅乾,已經被我踩碎了。新新最喜歡吃動物餅乾,原來他拉妹妹的手是要給妹妹餅乾。我的心被刺痛了,連忙到他的房間,他已經被保姆哄睡了,可還在睡夢裏抽搐著。我不禁泛起一陣酸楚,我這是怎麼了?我還是他的媽媽嗎?
一天,我和女兒們玩著擁抱的遊戲。我拍拍手,她們就喊著媽媽,張著小胳膊爭先恐後向我跑來,然後我們緊緊擁抱。這麼簡單的遊戲,她們卻樂此不疲,一遍又一遍。忽然,新新也張開他的胳膊,向我跑來,含糊地說著,媽媽,媽媽。我簡直不相信自己的耳朵!我的兒子,自從來到這個世界,從沒開過口!緊緊摟住撲到懷裏的新新,我哭了。已經對他沉睡的母愛被重新喚起,兒子,媽媽有多久沒摟過你,媽媽對不起你!
我終於開始認真思考我的孩子們,我有一個與眾不同的家庭,我竟然有三個孩子!他們正漸漸長大,將來要有他們自己的人生。等我離開這個世界時,只有他們之間才能互相照顧。尤其新新,他需要好多好多的愛。
我不再分隔他們,而是常常告訴女兒們,要好好愛哥哥,因為沒有他,就沒有她們。我知道她們聽不懂,我只希望她們會記住我的話。
我每天陪三個孩子做遊戲,唱歌,跳舞,為他們講故事。而新新,越來越有靈氣,不但會叫爸爸、妹妹了,還會含糊表達自己的需要,而且會隨著節奏跳些簡單的舞步。看著並成一排熟睡中的孩子們,我終於相信這個世界上有奇跡,那就是愛,愛可以創造一切!
陽陽和月月到了上幼稚園的年齡,我也該上班了。為了減少我的負擔,婆婆來商量著把新新接走。我猶豫再三,其實按新新現在的情況,勉強可以上幼稚園,可他畢竟和別的孩子不一樣,我害怕來自外界給他的傷害。
新新被帶走的那個晚上,女兒們不肯上床睡覺,一定要等哥哥回來。她們閃著漂亮的大眼睛問我,哥哥什麼時候回來?為什麼哥哥不上幼稚園?我的心一凜,回答她們,哥哥生病了,要好長時間才會好。她們又問。他會想我們的,為什麼我們不照顧他呢?快讓哥哥回來,我們會照顧他的。我的心緊了又緊,你們要乖乖的,只要你們聽話,哥哥就會回來。她們終於乖乖睡下,而我在黑夜裏掛念著新新。兒子,你好嗎?
女兒們只去了三天幼稚園,就說什麼也不肯去了,告訴我幼稚園裏有好多好玩的玩具,還有好多的小朋友,還學習新歌,認字,英語,她們要等哥哥回來一起去。她們充滿期盼的眼睛望著我,還帶有小小的挑釁。我訝於她們的執拗,耐著性子哄著她們,可她們卻怎麼也不肯答應。我沉下臉一手抱著一個,她們哇哇哭起來,媽媽騙人,說只要我們乖,哥哥就會回來,我們都聽話了,可哥哥還是沒有回來!
我的心猛地僵住了!壓抑的眼淚再也控制不住,你們的哥哥,他和別人不一樣,他永遠學不會那些東西!女兒們為我擦著淚,會的,會的,媽媽,哥哥能學會的,我們會幫助他的!看著她們,我感到了做媽媽的歉疚,我只會一味逃避,以為自己很愛新新,卻不如孩子們充滿信心去面對。
門鈴響,竟然是婆婆送新新回來了!幾天不見,新新瘦了好多。婆婆無奈地說,這幾天新新幾乎沒吃東西,也不肯睡覺,只一直哭,喊著妹妹,妹妹。她看了心裏實在難受,不得已就送回來了。
女兒們興奮起來,拉著新新的手,開始講幼稚園的事情,還催促我為新新換最漂亮的衣服,他們要一起去幼稚園。
我找到園長,請求她讓我的孩子們在一起。因為按照新新的年齡應該上大班,可他的智力水準還不如小班的孩子。當看到我的女兒們一邊一個拉著兒子的手,並揮手和我再見的時候。我相信這個決定是對的,愛會為我們創造更多的奇跡。
每天從幼稚園回來,陽陽和月月都幫助新新復習一天學過的東西,而且不許我插手。我的女兒們是班裏最出色的孩子,學什麼都特別快,而且記得牢。我知道那是因為她們要教哥哥,所以格外用心去學習。從沒看過比她們還有耐心的孩子,輪流一遍又一遍教著笨拙的新新,一個單詞往往要重複好多好多遍,甚至夢裏還在喃喃。每次新新學會了,她們就會歡呼起來,然後學著幼稚園老師的樣子翹起大拇指說,哥哥你好棒,哥哥你真棒!而我的兒子,就看著妹妹,傻傻憨憨地笑著。
老師要求每個孩子學習寫自己的名字,這對新新來講簡直是不可能的事情。可一個月後的一天,女兒們興奮地拉著兒子跑來告訴我,哥哥會寫自己的名字了!
我將信將疑地看著兒子在紙上歪歪扭扭地寫下兩個大大的[新]字,尤其敖看到他們練習的本子,我小小的女兒們,竟然知道把哥哥的名字拆成筆劃來教,好幾個本子寫著他們循序漸進的過程,我再一次被女兒們的耐心折服得淚流滿面。一天,我去接他們。走到教室門口,聽到有個孩子喊著,你們的哥哥是個傻孩子!我一驚,連忙走進去。我示意正要阻止的老師,決定讓孩子們自己去面對。只見陽陽憋紅了小臉對那個孩子說,我的哥哥不是傻孩子,他是天使,他丟了翅膀,來到我們家,變成一個世界上最好的哥哥,他只不過還沒習慣人間的生活。孩子們發出'哇'的驚歎聲,你們的哥哥竟然是天使哎!
老師含著眼淚摟過陽陽,對孩子們說,新新是我們班的天使,他會愛我們每個小朋友,還教會我們如何去愛別人。
回家的路上,我的心被女兒編織的故事激蕩著。我問她們為什麼那麼愛哥哥,她們一起回答,因為沒有哥哥就沒有我們啊!忽地淚又盈滿我的眼,原來她們已經牢牢記住了我的話,那麼小,就學會了愛和感恩。他們是上天賜給彼此的天使,也是上天送給我最珍貴的禮物。因為他們,我才知道,做媽媽是那麼值得驕傲和幸福!

4.01.2008

Totus Tuus

Speaking of Viktor (prior post), just got some new pieces (& the not-so-new Tallis "If You Love Me") from last choir rehearsal. One of them is Rutter Gloria, it has some crazy organ work. SWEET!

Along with the same thought, I FINALLY ordered the CD for Olivier Messiaen "Vingt Regards sur l'Enfant-Jesus". A 2-hour long concert piece for piano. I heard that live years ago, played by my piano teacher at Berkeley, Jacqueline Chew. I have been thinking about the piece since the new piano rolled into the santuary more than a year ago. The Messiaen piece uses those extra lowest keys on this piano. I did mention that to Viktor once. (hope he won't kill me for that!) It's a breath-taking piece. Amazing.

p.s. I've learnt that Ms. Chew became an Oblate because of her study of this music.

And there's the excerpt from the piece call "Totus Tuus". It's written for John Paul
2's visit to Poland. I think it means "Totally Yours", a phrase JP2 used as the devotion to BVM. Such a prayerful work.

I will check out if there's recording for this piece.

Faure Concert Podcast


Juse writing to let everyone knows, that the Recording for the Faure Concert is up on the SToC music ministry homepage. Just follow the link to St. Therese Website, then to Music ministry page, then Recording. I don't know why, but Vicktor's Solo piece is not there.

addedum: Viktor's Solo was not there, because he wanted to re-record it. I wonder why. :( I fwd him the Poem his piece was based on (it's originally a Melodie -art song). & afterward, he told he he would have play it differently if he had known beforehand. :p I didn't know the title of his Solo piece until the day of concert. So...

3.31.2008

慈悲主日 Divine Mercy Sunday



先教宗若望保祿二世在二千禧年,頒訂了復活期第二主日為「救主慈悲主日」,指出慶祝救主慈悲的奧迹,是對逾越節三日慶典和復活節八日慶期的滿全。因著天主無比的聖善和慈悲大愛,無罪的基督以聖死為我們罪人作了永恆的祭獻,從祂聖心流出的血和水,使我們享有源源不絕的恩寵。水,救贖和淨化我們;血,賦予我們祂的生命和愛情,只要我們投奔救主愛的汪洋中,我們便可得到慈悲和憐憫的豐厚恩寵,這是我們何等的福分哩!而根據宗座聖赦院於2002年頒布的法令,虔誠參與救主慈悲主日敬禮的信友,滿全教會所訂的條件,更可獲得全大赦。這實在是主賜的大慈悲,我們應好好珍惜這恩寵,全心信賴救主,棄絕罪惡,與主修和,善領聖體,懇切祈禱,力行愛德,尤其是遵行基督愛的寶訓,透過行為、言語和祈禱,將救主的慈悲帶給近人。

1935年指示波蘭傅天娜修女:神聖慈悲敬禮,當在復活節後第一主日隆重慶祝。那天是復活後第八天,天主賜給了宗徒們赦罪的權柄,建立了告解聖事。耶穌向聖女傅天娜說:「我的女兒,妳要告知全世界有關我的無限慈悲。我希望這節日是所有靈魂!尤其是那些可憐罪人們的靈魂的避難所和庇護。在那天,我要開啟我慈悲的深淵,我要向那些投奔到我慈悲泉源的靈魂傾注大量的恩寵。」耶穌希望每天三時正,他在十字架上的聖死都會得到恭敬。耶穌教導傅天娜修女說:「你要盡力在這個小時內拜苦路,但要你本份容許。如果你沒法拜苦路,最少也要走進聖堂逗留片刻,在至聖聖體前,朝拜我滿載仁慈的聖心。即使你沒法走進聖堂,那麼在你身處的地方,把自己沉浸在祈禱之中吧,即使只有片刻也足夠了。」耶穌許諾說,在這個小時內,「你可以為自己和其他人求得一切。」「我不會拒絕因我的苦難向我求恩的人。」我們在這個時間的祈檮,應指向耶穌,我們的祈求也應訴諸他悲慘苦難的功勞。

神聖慈悲時刻經文(下午三時整唸)

主耶穌,
你的聖死為靈魂流出生命之源,也為普世開啟了慈悲的海洋。
啊!無限神聖慈悲的生命之源,傾盡你的恩寵,流注我們及普世。從主耶穌聖心流出的血和水,你為我們是慈悲的泉源,我信賴你!至聖天主,至聖強有力者,至聖長存者,求你垂憐我們及普世。亞孟(三次)。主耶穌,慈悲的君王,我們信賴你!

神聖慈悲串經:可用普通的玫瑰珠來唸、開始時先劃十字聖號。

唸「天主經」、「聖母經」和「信經」各一遍。
在每粒大珠上唸:『永生之父,我把你至愛之子,我們的主耶穌基督的聖體、聖血、靈魂及天主性奉獻給你,以賠補我們及普世的罪過。』

在每粒小珠上唸:『因他的至悲慘苦難,求你垂憐我們及普世。』

結尾唸三次:『至聖天主,至聖強有力者,至聖長存者,求你垂憐我們及普世。』

有關神聖慈悲敬禮及聖女傅天納 可參考 http://www.catholicworld.info/divinemercy/

3.20.2008

Easter Morning Meditation

One of the Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius is a meditation on the meeting of Jesus and Mary on the morning of the resurrection. The retreatant is encouraged to let delight and love of this encounter permeate her entire being. This poem is an effort to put into writing the result of such a prayer experience.

She lay unsleeping in the pre-dawn darkness, pondering, pondering in her heart that long and heavy day. All through the night she had relieved her life with him. She ached with memory, who, she questioned, was this son, and who the God whose will he had so bravely come to do?
She thought again about his friends – Ashamed, confused, and frightened. Had they slept, she wondered. Would they ever laugh again? What would she say to comfort them when morning came?
Across the room she heard the other women stir. “It’s almost day,” they whispered. “Come with us. We’re going to the tomb.”
“You go,” she said, I’ll stay and start the bread. The brothers will be hungry when they wake.”
But when the other women left, she knew there was another reason she had stayed behind. She knew – and yet she did not know she know – They would not find his body in the tomb.
She sat alone beside her bed, and thought again of Jesus, Hearing in her heart again the echoes of his dying words:
“I thirst … This day you will be with me … Father, Why … Forgive, they know not … Here, your mother …
“Woman, here I am. Your son.” She heard the words aloud! His voice! Her son alive and standing in the doorway! “Woman, peace, “he said, and took her hands in his and raised her to her feet. “My mother, peace.” He held her tired body gently in his arms.
She stood in silent wonder, Slowly letting truth come home. “My son,” she said at last.
“My son,” Her lips were trembling with her unshed tears, and tenderly she touches his face to let her fingers tell her once again, that he was really with her. “Jesus! Son!” She took his hand and kissed the open wound.
He sat beside her on the window seat. “At times I didn’t think I’d make it, Mother.So much anguish. So much fear. I did not think my love was strong enough.” “But, Jesus, you kept praying for them all, kept calling to your Father …” “And I really was afraid He didn’t hear.” He shook his head as if to shake his fear.
“You suffered so,” she said, “and there was nothing I could do for you. I felt so helpless, Jesus!”
“Mother, you were there,” he said. “I needed that. I needed you to be there. So did John.”
She sat up suddenly. “The brothers, Jesus! Do they know? The women don’t. They left here early, just before you came. They took the oils to anoint your body…” Then she wept. The joy, the grief, the tiredness. The love swept through her body in great aching sobs. He held her, calming her with strength.
She spoke at last: “We lost one, Jesus.”
“Yes” he said, “I know.”
“If only he had come to me like Peter did.”
“So Peter came here, Mother. That was good.” He smiled then and stood to leave.
"I must go find them all," he said.
"The women will have reached the tom by now," she said.
"The brothers slept together in the supper room."
He kissed her gently on the cheek. "Shalom," he said. "Shalom." And he was gone.
She leaned against the doorframe drinking in the sun, Not knowing how to think or feel.
He was alive! Her son alive!
He lives, he lives, he lives, she thought,
The joyful message pounding in her blood.
She stopped and folded back the bed. "I'd better get some breakfast made, " she said aloud. "The brothers will be hungry when they wake."
Awake, awake, awake, the woman chanted, Grinding out her wheat with ancient grace. And what a waking this new day would bring!

復活節清晨的默想

依納爵神操其中一個題目是默想耶穌和聖母瑪利亞在復活那天早上的會面。這個練習鼓勵我們讓這喜悅的經驗充分滲入我們的心思意念,讓我們分享聖母瑪利亞的喜樂。這首詩是愛爾蘭一位修女默想以後寫下來的。
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她躺在晨羲前的黑暗中,心裡不斷沉思著。回想著那漫長沉重的一天。整個晚上她思念不斷回到與他一起渡過的一生。她的回憶充滿著愛、痛苦,和憂傷。我的兒子,你是誰呢!你勇敢地聽從祂的旨意的天主又是誰呢?
她想到他的朋友-他們所感到的羞愧、困惑、害怕。他們昨晚有休息嗎?她想。我會再次看到他們的笑容嗎?我要能怎樣做才能安慰他們呢?
屋子另一邊傳來其他婦女細細碎語。她們來到她跟前說:「天要亮了。來,我們到主的墓穴去。」
「你們去吧。我留在這裡做早點。弟兄們起來時要肚子餓了。」她說。
當其他婦女離開以後,她心裡知道她留下來是另有原因。她心裡知道-但她並不明白-她們在墓穴裡不會找到他的軀體。
她坐在床邊,想念著耶穌,心裡再次響起他臨終的話:
我渴… 我的天父,為何… 寬恕他們吧!因為他們不知道… 看,你的母親…
「女人,是我,你的兒子。」她聽到了他清切的聲音。
她的兒子活生生的站在門邊!「女人,祝妳平安!」他把雙手放在她手裡,徐徐地她站了起來。
「母親,祝妳平安!」他把她疲倦的身體擁在懷中。
她靜靜地站著,容許這個事實慢慢地記錄於腦海中。
「…兒子…」她終於說。
「…兒子。」她的唇發著抖,她的眼充滿著淚光,她的手溫柔地撫摸著他的面頰。像是要證明他實實在在的站在她面前。「耶穌!兒子!」
她親吻了他手心的傷口。
他領她到窗前的座位,「有幾次我也沒有信心完成這個任務。多麼大的痛苦,多麼深的恐懼,我不知道我的愛夠不夠堅強。」
「但耶穌!您不停地為他們祈禱,不停地向天父祈求…」
「我真的很怕祂沒有聽見。」他搖搖頭,像是要把心中的恐懼搖掉。
「你受苦了,我又沒能為你做什麼。那感覺是多麼無助!」
「母親,您一直伴在我身旁,那是我最需要的。若望也需要妳在那。
她突然想起。「弟兄們!他們知道了嗎?瑪大肋納她們大清早到墓穴去了。她們帶了香料去為你的身體傅油…。」說到這裡,她終於哭了。
她所感受的喜悅、悲傷、疲勞;她感到主的愛充滿在她身上,不禁痛哭了起來。他把她擁在懷裡,安慰著她。
過了一段時間,她說:「耶穌,我們失去了一個。」
「是,我知道…」
「要是他像保祿一樣來找我… 」
「保祿來過了…那很好…」他站起來笑了笑,我要去把他們都找回來。」
「婦女們應該到墳墓了。弟兄們昨晚都在飯廳睡了一睡。」
他在她臉上親了一下。「平安,平安。」就出去了。
她依在門邊,浴在晨羲的日光裡,她的心思意念不斷的轉來轉去。
他復活了!她的兒子復活了!
他復活了!他復活了!
喜悅的訊息充盈著她心中。
她回到床邊,把棉被疊起來。「我要開始做早點了。弟兄們起來時肚子會餓。」她說。
醒來吧!醒來吧!她一邊唱起歌來,一邊磨著麥子。
醒來吧!這是上主所造的新一天!一個歡欣喜悅的一天!

translation © maykuo

3.18.2008

Art Work & Meditation for Holy Week

I found this Religious Artwrok website.
The Following is the main page for Holy Week Meditation

http://www.biblia.com/jesusm/passion.htm

3.13.2008

和好聖事 The Scarament of Reconciliation

The Duck & the Devil

There was a little boy visiting his grandparents on their farm. He was given a slingshot to play with out in the woods. He practiced in the woods, but he could never hit the target. Getting a little discouraged, he headed back for dinner. As he was walking back he saw Grandma's pet duck. Just out of impulse, he let the slingshot fly, hit the duck square in the head and killed it. He was shocked and grieved! In a panic, he hid the dead duck in the wood pile, only to see his sister watching!

Sally had seen it all, but she said nothing. After lunch the next day Grandma said, 'Sally, let's wash the dishes.' But Sally said, 'Grandma, Johnny told me he wanted to help in the kitchen.' Then she whispered to him, 'Remember the duck?' So Johnny did the dishes.

Later that day, Grandpa asked if the children wanted to go fishing and Grandma said, 'I'm sorry but I need Sally to help make supper.'
Sally just smiled and said, 'Well, that's all right because Johnny told me he wanted to help.' She whispered again, 'Remember the duck?' So Sally went fishing and Johnny stayed to help.

After several days of Johnny doing both his chores and Sally's, he finally couldn't stand it any longer.

He came to Grandma and confessed that he had killed the duck. Grandma knelt down, gave him a hug and said, 'Sweetheart, I know. You see, I was standing at the window and I saw the whole thing, but because I love you, I forgave you. I was just wondering how long you would let Sally make a slave of you.'

Thought for the day and every day thereafter?

Whatever is in your past, whatever you have done... and the devil keeps throwing it up in your face (lying, cheating, debt, fear, bad habits, hatred, anger, bitterness, etc.)...whatever it is...You need to know that God was standing at the window and He saw the whole thing. He has seen your whole life. He wants you to know that He loves you and that you are forgiven.

He's just wondering how long you will let the devil make a slave of you.

The great thing about God is that when you ask for forgiveness, He not only forgives you, but He forgets. It is by God's grace and mercy that we are saved.

Go ahead and make a difference in someone's life today. Share this with a friend and always remember: God is at the window!

When Jesus died on the cross; he was thinking of you!

If you are one of the 93% who will stand up for Him, forward this with the title 'I'm in the 93%'.

Would you believe 7% of people won't forward this?